Anything

The best thing about blogging is,  I can type anything I want without thinking on what other people will ever think.  Just because I can and i don't want to tell them I still have a blog.  Har har har.

Sayang,
If there are anything I posted here in this blog about you,  that is the exact thing I wanna tell you but I can't. Hewhew.  Some things are better to be kept hidden.  Hehe.  I do want you to know everything I keep deep inside.  But I don't want you to know the fact that I have a blog.  Hehe. 

Sweetheart.

Falling in love is good.

The way you sugarcoating me.
The way you love me.
The way you trust me.
The way you make me smile.
The way you call my full name.
The way you fix me when I sad.
The way you wanna keep this love last long.
The way you respect me as a woman you love.
The way you said "I can't promise you anything but as long as Allah let me love you.  I'll do my best. "

Everything feels so great.
To even call you 'sayang' when I get mad make me feel good.
I can't tell how good this feels like.
I can't thank Allah enough to open my heart again.

I love you sayang.

Afraid to love

Have you ever feel afraid to take a risk to fall in love with someone new?
He makes you smile.
He makes you laugh.
He makes you feel needed.
He makes you feel loved.
He's there when you're at your worst.
He's now your good morning and good night.
Thinking of him just enough to make all the pain you've been through in your past vanish in a blink of eye.
Just like you've never been hurt before.

But then,
You're afraid of the future.
Will he stay to say I love you every day forever?
Have u ever feel wanna push him away?
So that all of this fairytale you live in would just stay as a dream. 
So that u will never ever cry over things you're heart can't bear,
Afraid of being love by someone you love. 

Don't fall for me.  Don't make me fall deeper.  Because the pain of being hurt by someone I care and love,  is unbearable.